Moving Up and Out + Job Update

 So it's Thursday and winter solstice is today! ❄ 

Time is moving by so fast. While the day itself seems impractically short the amount of tasks and responsibilities are overwhelming growing. 

So anyway, to catch you up to speed from last week - I got a job! Not the same job from the interview I was running off to but the one prior to it. Honestly, I've been a bit back and forth about it.  

Structurally and aesthetically, the second job interview had more of the feeling and professionalism that I would love to work in. Not to discredit where I'll be now, but there felt like a sharp difference in feeling like I actually work at a spa. In fact, the interviewer was late so I got a chance to really sit down at that second location and take in the atmosphere, products, music and employee behavior. 

However, I haven't heard back from them and it's been a week exactly since. 

The upside and really one of the major reasons I'm not at a total loss with my new job is how close to home it will be. Speaking of which, by the end of this month, yours truly will be moving in with the love of her life. We're not at the space to have our own place just yet so this is a great test run. 

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Can I be honest with you? 

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I think the whole idea of moving out at this point scares me. Just a little. It's more so that I wonder if moving out of the routine "comforts" of home will activate panic within myself. It's not like I haven't been away before. I moved out plenty of times when going to college and once officially in 2020. Though that was a short period. 

But last year, when I went away for school (basically forty minutes from Canada far away) I had nothing but panic and anxiety attacks. I didn't and couldn't feel safe for the life of me. The whole time I was away there was nothing but a mixture of survival, fear, potential optimism for trying to overcome the fear, suspense and existentialism. But that's college. 

This time... it's simply growing up. Moving on and away. It might be a good time for it though. This is the moment of transition. Starting a clean slate over the holidays and into the new year. I've decided to embrace this change with an open heart.